|Histories of Discipline: The Performative Reproductions of Subjectivities of Secondary English Teachers|
Rebecca Lousie Stanko
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Pockets: 2012 (February) Teachers College Columbia University Ed.D. Dissertations, Gottesman Libraries Archive, Historical Dissertations
Tags: discourse, feminist theories, narrative research, neolibralism, post structuralist theories, subjectivity
Description/Abstract: In composing this dissertation, I have experienced the limits of language for expressing intangible and visceral knowledge. Similarly, I recognize the inevitable partiality of these acknowledgments, which can only begin to convey the depth of my gratitude.
I would like to thank my sponsor and mentor, Dr. Nancy Lesko, for offering
spaces in which I was able to engage with theories that have opened my world. Her responsiveness to my work unfailingly moved me to disrupt my own thinking, to read more and to read again, and to take up ideas that fascinated me, inaccessible as they seemed. To her, I owe what possibilities this research may have for thinking in new ways about subjectivities and knowledge. I am grateful, also, to my second committee
member, Dr. Janet Miller, for introducing me to narrative methodologies, which have
guided my re/conceptualizations, re/enactments, and re/writing of this “life’s work.” I would like to thank Dr. Peter Taubman, whose scholarship and provocative reading of this work continue to complicate, for me, notions of subjectivity, desire, and pleasure. I
am also thankful to Dr. David Hansen for his thoughtful engagement with this work,
particularly his succinct insights around “the ethics of reading” and the applicability of this research to the education of teachers.
This work would not be or would be quite different, without the generosity, curiosity, and commitments of Cleo, Emily, Lindsey, Josie, Mark, and Emir, the participants in this study. To each of them, I am forever beholden in mind and heart, which, as their narratives intimate, are inseparable.
if I am ever grateful to my mother, for celebrating every “victory” and offering boundless patience and love at all hours of the days and nights, and to John, for kindness that rendered heaviness light; to Robby, for (published) poetry and laughter; and to my father, for setting the bar higher than I imagined it could go.
I feel so fortunate to have engaged in the writing of this dissertation with Dr.
Limarys Caraballo, whose gifts of dependability, honesty, clarity, and time moved me to consider and embrace possibilities for this work and for life beyond it that I otherwise would not have. And finally, though not least, I thank Nicole for agreeing to be—and for being—my friend; Jules, for always already understanding; Seb, for undone boundaries around seemingly separate worlds; and Colin, for profound closeness.
With these acknowledgments, I dedicate this work to all of you, who have at once grounded and moved me.